obsessed with suicide?!

The new mentalities for this year.

2009-01-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

Lets get started for the new year! here are some new mentalities i will be taking on:

#1 To each, his own reality.

This is not profound. U see wars going on all the time. Gaza people attacking Israeli's and vice versa. All because of a fundamental difference in thinking. If everyone can be the same, and forgive each other, wont that be good? sure. But they stayed to their own perception of reality. Its so ironic that a simple principle called forgiveness is hard to understand. well if u ever tried to change someone or the like, you notice others wont change also. So lets not try to upset each other and respect each other's mindsets, unless they really want change.

#2. resist conformity;Group conformity is the most poisonous of all!

Dont be a mindless robot,incapable of resisting mainstream hypnotism.dont be rigid. be creative. Dare to be different. Let others laugh at you. For they are just part of the crowd who does not dare to be outstanding, and sees you as a freak. Live by your own realities, and not that of the programmable robots u see beside you. Others will gradually find that you are some cool, ambitious being.

#3. See things in big picture.

Following the crowd narrows ur worldview, see things in a big picture, like wat i always emphasize on, and u can see more possibilities than ur narrowminded counterparts. Thats all. You can choose to take on my mentalities as well, but if u feel that it is too extreme, u can choose not to. For i do not force my reality and yours, and we keep our distance in not crossing over each other's mentalities.

A NEW START

2008-04-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

Enough of THE WHINING on EDUCATIONAL STUFF and how to handle failure.

here is a new chapter to my life. The life that anyone can MAKE THINGS HAPPEN BY THEIR OWN WILL,regardless of naysaying and all etc.

The goal and objective here is to be different from everyone else. Pick up hobbies and interests that may benefit pple ard you, at the same time not so mainstream,
activities like doing MAGIC tricks, playing in bands, which is not so popular here, but serves to entertain pple.Or u cna still be a mainstream lawyer/counsellor/policeman/teacher etc government conformist jobs, just make sure u do not have the typical mainstream image of those occupations i just listed. That sets u apart from the rest.

It all happened in my current 2008 holidays, a 1 and a half month break from poly in 2nd year. I've met new frens who share same interests as me, guitars/magic etc. Been asked to meet up and jam, perform gigs,and even old frens began building rapport with me once more,just to learn guitar, and reminisce the old fun times.

Performed magic with a fellow buddy and magician, in orchard road. Practised opening sets, or in other words, groups of random strangers, utilising magic tricks,and casual convo. THINGS AS HUMANS THAT WE DONT NORMALLY LEARN IN SCHOOL.iT KINDA was like me and my buddy magician fren opened up a long lost secret on how to make more friends, when all the friendship in school seems so bleak, that we're gonna run out of frens, and here in orchard road and in the general public, we are making our friends right here.

Sigh, singaporeans, forever too busy with work, never bothered to maintain eye contact with each other, even on a leisure stroll down orchard road. Not even a smile that makes our day.

Good thing i met pickup artists in the hiolidays as well. I decided to learn some of these stuff so that i dont have to fear not having a lifelong companion to be with.
sounds strange. haha i know. But i am not going to target a girl for the sole purpose of sex, like most PUA (pickup artists) do. AT a social stage now, i have only figured out the ART OF MAKING FRENS, not pickup girls as yet.
here are some of my TIPS on making frens in public.

#1.be an outstanding conversationlist. fire up ur mind,think of things that u can entertain people with, etc magic tricks, crapping ard etc. open them up.

#2. Treat random strangers a simple drink. NO one will reject this.nO one will NOT want to reject feeling like an unexpected VIP.do it like a hidden camera reality show style.
(i once hung out with a card flourishing [manipulation] friend at the arcade.
he had 3 tokens left and could not decide on what machine to plonk the coins in to play the games there. He gave up, and just chucked the tokens into the palms of one of the 2 girls standing behind us. The one that received the token was shocked and surprised at the same time. U should have seen the unexpected joyous facial expression of hers! damn cute.haha)

#3. After all the fun, intro ur name.never intro ur name at the start, unless its ur fren's fren. doing that to strangers at first approac makes u look like a kid whon thinks he /she is so popular , that pple should know u. Thats a smart alec move, and its unwelcomed.

#4. Once they get to know you, talk about interests, mundane things (universal topics that all people can relate to). however, dont talk too much on any topic alone, it can be boring to you or them after some time. Behave like a computer, processing multipile threads of convo at the same time. shoot different topics.
(i've always started out being too interviewer. i kept asking my new frens about his/her interest, while i nod and "yes,so what else do u do etc??where u stay etc??"
at one side. Honestly, getting mundane info from someone in a whole convo isnt entertaining.)

#5. Say something intersting abt urself. I;ve met pple who just couldnt say anything interesting about their lives, If ur one of those, its alright, maybe keep a diary, and who knows, u may even have a day where something funny happens to you! if not, well, u can learn to be like me, who tries to relax and just come out with any crap that comes into ur mind. toss ur convo around with fun topics after the initial stage of convo (interests,mundane life topics).

#6.exchanging phone numbers among same sex interaction is always smooth, but in the opposite sex, as i've noticed, usually girls will give guys their msn / emails. never their phone on the first meet. learn to respect that. they'll give phone numbers once they are comfortable with a guy. (girls...socially calibrated creatures!!haha).

thats all for now. enjoy the flashy videos below.-yan chen (chatartist).

2007-11-01T19:54:00.000-07:00

HAHHAHAHAH CRISS ANGEL PARODY!!!!! check out the last part...its just SICK AND FUNNY!!!YOU"LL LAUGH UR HEAD OFF!!

ANTIC CAFE!!

2007-11-01T06:33:00.000-07:00

ANTIC CAFE!!!!!

Hey i first saw them on e japanese visual kei magazine. I could read the katakana script...antiku and then followed by e chinese characters for coffeshop. (you kow, those japanese writings? maixture of chinese and their own script.) So here are 2 vids for your enjoyment. IF any of you males happen to like one "gal" guitarist with blond hair in e vid...you'll soon know that u have been a GAY!!!! cos its an all guy band..but hey ..visual kei is all about flamboyant looks,outrages feminine costumes and looks on guys(mostly).for gals...its just pure gothic..haha enjoy anyway!!

maplegunman--antic cafe

escapism - antic cafe

CRISS ANGEL!! CSI:NY

2007-10-26T23:55:00.000-07:00

HEy there i'm sure you guys know who criss angel is. Check him out on these vids of CSI:NY as he is featured on!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_YsuglhMHQ

watch this link, as the embedding for this vid is disabled..
thanks!! enjoy!!!

FTTS

2007-10-06T00:39:00.000-07:00

FTTS? its a korean duo Rn B band "Fly To The Sky"..its your classic korean love songs.Check them out and some outrageous videos of brian ( one of e singers) doing hilarious stuff!!

2007-07-30T07:24:00.000-07:00

RACIST JOKES!!!!

OK guys pls do not beat me up.Take it as general entertainment.Some of the jokes i heard. And the last joke is generally not recommended unless u wanna condemn someone from any race.here we go.

#1 On board an open air bus... was seated four guys.An american,chinese,indian and malay.

The american was smoking a cigar.within a puff he threw the whole thing away.Chinese guy being curious :"why the heck did u do that?waste of ur money!"
American guy :"c'mon man!! Cigars can be found anywhere,anycorner at affordable prices in America!whats more there is so much..not a waste anyway.."

Malay guy eating satay stick, ate a satay and threw half of the first satay out of the window.Chinese guy :"hey!!! waste of food!!"Malay guy :"ABang...satay anywhere also sell sial...so cheap some more.DIAM LA!!"

chinese guy though for a while...and threw the indian man out of the window!!!

* ps i also modified this joke of throwing a china dude outta the window.As china got too many pple. ok pls dont beat me up.cos i didnt make it up.

#2 dayong sampan.

In teh beginning God created man.He made one man and decided to play with his brain configuration. He made a whole brain and put him in a boat, and onto a river. the man began to sing "row row row the boat..gently down the stream..!!"
God thought :not bad not bad...now lets try half the brain..
MAn :"row....row...row..the...boat..gently down...the stream.."
God thought :good good.try with nothing in his head.
YOU guessed it .the MAN went"DAYONG SAMPAN!!!!DAYONG DAYONG SAMPAN!!!...."

2007-07-26T18:59:00.000-07:00

Enjoy this video of staind's "its been awhile". Again i have been too busy doing my projects and all....its taken it stoll on me and again i have stood strong!!
well actually i was feeling kinda depressed cos i felt i have no sense of achievement doing anything at all...ok..anything that involves tests and exams.I understand life is about lifelong learning and not tests or exams that brands u an "A" or "F' which makes u feel so damn miserable. have been through a major academic failure once and since then i have not been looking forward to seeing any test or exam results,regardless of a pass or fail.

People are usually happy when they pass a subject right? Not with me in this case. we undo what we learn once we have passed and move on to the next semester.Major waste of life.Hence a good pass can go back to square one..even if u are a top student.Cos at the end of the day you will be forgetting what you learnt.I dont come to school just to get a scrap piece of paper that certifies me in what i will undo all my time learning.No thanks.=>

MORBID POEMS

2007-07-17T19:38:00.000-07:00

MORBID POEMS .

At work
With other people
At times
On the outside

I look fine
I seem fine
I feel pretty good
I have a positive attitude...

But inside, alone, I carry dark & heavy thoughts --
fleeting thoughts of suicide.
The words cannot convey,
the feelings, the pain
Somehow I ignore them --
for a while, perhaps --
a long while, all day, or many days --
figure it will go away -- ignore
It's automatically not even recognized mentally.
I go back
forcing myself
forcing day to day, week to week,
contact with people and life
My sorrow is hidden,
My anguish contained.
I push forward;
I feel like dying.
I tell no one.
No one knows how I feel..

(erm..i didnt write this poem...its found at a webbie http://suicidal.com/solemnpoetry/ )

but seriously i am fed up with my life as it is now. A monotonous life of studying.
NOt that gaining knowledge is boring, but hey i have not a single job experience!! althoug i got my first job , i soon realise it was not realistic after signing up for it.Then i worry about my performance if i were to do other jobs.hence at that period of time i did not find anymore jobs. And succumbed to the typical Singaporean-over-emphasized-cant-lose-out typical thing : STUDY STUDY STUDY!! no cert=nothing.
nothing = no place in society = remove urself from this earth?
that certainly torments me. Most people dont realise u can do what u want even if u had low qualifications. So what? the cert is just a ticket for others to give u the get go to jumpstart a career.Why wait for OTHERS to give u the go? WHY CANT U GIVE URSELF THE GO INSTEAD?WE DONT HAVE TO LOOK AT OTHERS FACES to function.WE FUNCTION OF OUR OWN ACCORD,SO LONG AS IT HURTS NO ONE. be a one man army if others dont even believe in you just cos u got no standard qualifications to gain a right in order to fit in to society. AND THATS IT. enjoy the bloody video. (LOOKS FAKE BUT REAL VISUAL)

BACK!

2007-07-03T20:17:00.000-07:00

BAck to blogging.Been busy those few days or even weeks as i am rushing my projects,obviously due!!! Hmm seems as though its been a while since i last put an "installment" to my series of vids. Cant seem to find any that suits the taste of you guys at the moment....after all most of my vids were suited for me ..selfish in a way haha..excpet those humorous ones..universally suited for everyone...hehe!!

What can i put here?? ANother one of my hard core musical preferences...here you go!! its a vid by slipknot "before i forget"..and another one in whcih a lecturer at my school showed..DHL commerical...Enjoy its humoruous way of delivering the message of love!!

TRI_ANGLE

2007-06-04T20:09:00.000-07:00

this is a song by DONG BANG SHIN KI,a korean boyband,collaborating with artists like BOA, the TRAX (korean rock band).Enjoy their rendition of Mozart's famous piece!!

Another video of korean music "the trax"..the band u saw in the previous vid.they look jap cos they HAve performed and are famous in JApan...hence maybe they took their image from the culture there.
And one more thing...guys..do u think i should go for an image change??i am thinking of it now dunno why haha.Sometimes i feel we live only once.Enjoy live.I could try it!! What do u guys think??

THe trax - paradox

slipknot??

2007-06-01T21:51:00.000-07:00

Slipknot is a hardcore metal band that hits hard.But on this one someone made them look like they are playing an old classic song, la bamba. Quite funny to watch.I came upon this "via accident". so enjoy. BTW my previous blog post,the one that says "when your kids die,call me!!" ...just ignore it..PEOPLE!!!!! cos i was venting my stress and anger at something that made me lose control that day.JUst read it for fun and not take it seriously.Dont ever take the Stress in life seriously.Just try to have fun in everything you do.Or you could end up KILLING YOURSELF.Ok sheila a.k.a yayapapaya(papayo) , my close fren, said i talk so much about suicide and death to the extent that is sounds horrible. And here i go again!!!
Alright i will try to look for the original slipknot vid so u guys can have an idea of what they sound like.Then after that enjoy the la bamba thing. fun!!

damn dead thing

2007-05-29T00:06:00.000-07:00

First time i am posting a post.A very mundane sort of post.the type where u do it like a journal.a diary.

Most of my frens would be shocked to see me stomp out of the class today.violently.Cos i was irritated. At the fact that i cannot understand anything so far in this course.some times feel that i am wasting my time here.YEs to my family : you always tell me if i am unsure of anything,ask ,right? i did that.repeatedly.But the more i ask the more i got lost.JUst couldnt understand IT stuff.Not that now i dislike the course like i use to.Its getting more practical,interesting and realistic now.But i just seem to be stuck at this stage.

My frens? they tried explaining patiently to me like 5 ,6 times of me repetitively clearing my doubts.but each time i cant get it,they just type watever
code into my computer assignment.And that really mde me feel worse.I AM AN IDIOT here(IT related only!! :) ).there is no denying that.

To those parents who judge your kids by academic status.U can jolly well watch your kids kill themselves.And that really appeases me.Because their sense of self esteem stems from school ONLY.your effort in bringing them up has gone to waste.Totally ignored your kid's feelings.Lets be frank here.so what if you are good at studying?high IQ is not successful enough.High EQ is.I notice that most highly educated people fail at relationships.the dumb,idiotic and spastic side of intelligence.

I dont judge myself by the world's standards.I judge myself based on my personality and potentials that i have yet to find.and bringing these potentials up.You can jolly well look down on me if u see alphabets like "F" or 49/100 scores
on the paper.it does not matter.If i were to totally give up when i hit the hard stuff,like my family or whoever claims so..then i might as well give up on my life and just do what my blog address said :SUICIDE.

but no.there are so many forms of knowledge out there.So many things to learn.Surely can excel at at least 1 of them.Its like choosing life partners.Its the same SHIT dont you guys ,(or morons) get it?Like the saying goes for relationships "you can catch a better fish next time round".

U can hang out with a wild child ,biker dude or any ruffian boyfren or girlfren despite you yourself being a well brought up child.But your relationship cannot last long.Cos you feel pressured to do the very things you detest ,of which your lover asks you to.Its a personality mismatch.picture this advice my parents often gave me "if u dont like something,try to nurture some interest in it,you may like it,you may never know" .that was when i told them i didnt like my course.Now try to put it into the area of relationship,since its more or less the same thing.IT WILL NOT WORK.if both partners personality are of a different spectrum,the relationship will blow off.No hope.

How about a mismatch of potential?i know i cant do music courses since my grades dont allow me to do so.And immediately i have a "unqualified" label put on me.But now thats ok with me.i just learn what i can in this IT course.Some people,regardless of educational or financial status,manage to be successful in their work because they have a strong passion for it,and they fight to the end.If u guys have been watching a korean show currently airing, entitled "be strong geum soon! " then you know.Its about a girl whom husband died three days later after marriage (the wedding needs to be carried in order to cover up for the shame of them having a child before marriage).This girl does not have academic qualification but she managed to work at her dream salon.Cos she had the passion for her dream about becoming a hairstylist NO MATTER WHAT.people in the salon felt that she was a country bumpkin but she didnt even care.She knows that she knows she will become a hairstylist.pure hard work combined with thick skin (in order to enter the shop and fighting for her dream job despite having a less than attractive resume.)

To any typical singaporean,you can continue to judge your kids on academic qualifications.But when ur kids feel down,not wanting you to know of their troubles,just so that they will not let ur hopes fall,and eventually killing themselves..guess what? blame yourselves.COs some parents dont even consider their kid's potentials or even try fulfilling it.They base their "love" on their kids academic results.So that they can either show off to other parents on how smart their kids are.And totally oblivious to their kid's undue stress.If your kids cant take it and kills themselves,gimme a call.I'll play you a happy song.amidst your constant flows of tears and the wailing therafter.

now check out tis video highlighting the stupidity of modern educated people.Using their intelligence for the wrong stuff. Its "what i've done " by linkin park.

a series of good humor!!

2007-05-23T02:42:00.000-07:00

Warning : this videos are extremely exaggerating and hilarious.Have a good time laughing!!!

Cheers beer commercial

Amazing jesus (magician?)

suicidal dog!(bridgestone commerical)

Selling this!!

2007-05-23T02:38:00.000-07:00

I am selling this device to anyone willing to purchase it from me at $190.Currently its in stock and the only one left.Magicians,do ask around ok?? enjoy the preview.

next song!!

2007-05-21T23:32:00.000-07:00

Another japanese song by singer erika sajiwara , known to some as kaoru amane.enjoy the song,taiyo no uta!!

RUSSELL PETERS!!

2007-05-17T19:39:00.000-07:00

check out comedian russell peters.A comedian who specilaises in racist jokes.and people of all races appreciate it!!

chinese and indian

Accents

4 card change!

2007-05-10T00:16:00.001-07:00

The ascanio spread can produce hard hitting card illusions. Check out this piece of magic by david kong, "mercury" ,marketed by the ellusionist company.I recently bought the book "ascanio spread " by john racherbaumer,in it there are several variations of the spread.Its highly recommended by me if you want to do hard hitting card routines.

guess it!!

2007-05-10T00:15:00.002-07:00

Tired of pick- a- card routines??here is a cool gambling routine that you can use to amaze your friends!! its a trick called "this and that".enjoy.

the one trick that shocked us all!!!

2007-05-10T00:15:00.001-07:00

This is one hardcore packet routine that shcoked me and a few of my magician friends.We have not been able to figure this out.However, as for the rest of the tricks showcased in my blog,i know how its done.and i perform them on a constant basis. I really would like to recommend this up and coming magician,christopher rose.check out his other vids.Hopefully i woule like to post more of his vids on my site.

MORBID!!I ITS F***king war!!!

2007-05-08T19:38:00.000-07:00

Ok the title of my blog is actually "FREAKING WAR" not that F word.

HOW do war come about?only one word.Difference.

difference in ideology,race,culture.Where one party of individual cannot agree with the other to such a tense and hostile extent.

ITS so simple to understand,yet so hard to resolve.THe irony of it.MAn is the most intelligent being there is on the planet.And unable to even solve conflicts,or see unity and cooperation.
Guess we all ahd nothing better to do.So lets go to war.On a personal ,national,or international level.Since we all had nothing better to do.

Oh yeah which reminds me..different cultures judge their fellow countrymen with different standards.African and haiti tribes judge their countrymen by the amount of pain they can stand during gruesome tortures of the "rites of passage",in which an adolescence is preparing to be an adult.Thats in the rural.

In urban society? we all judge each other my how smart each other is..completely forsaking the fact that we are fellow human beings.We are just being USED here.Once your expiry date is up you are over and done with.Expiry as in death..or as in you have insufficient knowledge,thereby termed "incompetent", "slow" .labeled thus..you go to carry that label around .For those more emotional,depressed and having a lack of confidence,they cant stand it,and therefore seek death,an ultimate escape route that leads to everlasting state of relaxation. There is no more consideration of human emotions.Take it or leave it.Thats how the world outside school and family functions.To find a caring teammate would be like collecting a rare gem.

personally i will adopt a universal worldview,not one of escapism,but one of unity.
I shall see myself as an inhabitant of the earth,not of any country,or race.but just merely human.Its in his mentality that i see no difference,and i wold not judge anyone on racial status,academic qualifications,but to connect with the innermost core of everyone.This may sound like utopia,but its just that this mentality is that of a new and fresh one,in which many others have not thought of,and are not bothered to even think of.After all we live by our principles, aint it?? We own the earth in our lifetime,our actions will eventually destroy our very own habitat,not formed by our own hands.So go ahead with your senseless wars and watch how the earth swallows various countries up with floods,earthquakes,and tornadoes.You cant undo what you did,but you can forgive yourself.

HI!!

2007-05-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

THis is the second week of the new year academic term.Yep its second year.I am typing this posy for the sake of a fruit known as "papaya" ,which it requested for a new post(just kidding!).Was watching the recent korean show "be strong,geum soon"on Youtube.while waiting for it to load i just visited my own blog.And saw the tagboard.

Anyway i had enough of LIFE SKILLS ranting already.I also share with you guys my ups and downs and you guys do too!! (you know who you are..the one who had relational problems and is now with afdal..and papaya for telling me that you cant cope with 9 subjects last sem..)

Will try to change topic on my perspectives of life (i dont want to be over preachy here.) And sahre with you in upcoming videos of my interest (most of you already know what my interets are.) But i will be showcasing a different side of my interests.Something that can be done with human hands.Very good digital (meaning fingers here) dexterity here.Do enjoy! i think it looks cute.With th gloves on and fingers dancing to the music.

take ur music to a higher level!!

2007-04-12T22:19:00.000-07:00

If you are a musician,how do you take your music to a higher level??watch this vid and you will know.The yoshida brothers took their traditonal japanese shamisen instruments and added a twist to it.For me,an example,i play acoustic and classical guitars as though it was electric at times.And that explains the weird looks i get when i play for people.hahah!!

I believe

2007-04-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

NONO this is not your korean or japaese version of the classic "i believe". This is the recent one,by ayaka kimura.Enjoy!!

the universal view!!

2007-04-07T22:33:00.000-07:00

OK been thinking about some stuff on a general and daily perspective.Sorry christians! take no offense.( i happen to be i church before so i would like to comment on some things that dont seem fit to me)

the following is an excerpt from my now abandoned . stagnated and dead blog www.lifesavinglove.blogspot.com .

Firstly i understand cell leaders and their respective helpers care for each
member's spiritual coverage.However one must learn to be considerate and
understanding.the story went when one day after a family outing i was a
dead
beat cos we were doing this "expedition" at bukit timah hill...so i came
back
dirty ,tired and sweaty and needed to sleep.However there was a
cell group
goin on but i
wanted to rest.Each time my phone rang i
got nervous.Cos i knew
wats gonna
happen.Someone would call and tell me
loads of stuff on why i
should go to cell
groups.Yes its for my benefit
but please be understanding
when u genuinely are.U
can talk to a person
and say "i comprehend,i
understand", when in the first
place u dont.Its
like asking a mother whose
child was a victim of cholera who
has scores
of hope to be cured to
sympathise with a mother whose child died in a
car accident.Ok why am i
talking about death???? lets put it another
way.Get a
rock guitarist to talk
to a banking and finance officer.Half
the time both
parties have no idea
wats each other talking about.

Anyway,Its true that
when one of the
members called and told me
to come to cell group either way,i
hesitated and
couldnt find a stand to
say yes or no.so most of the time i kept
silent.It
must have irritated
the person so the phone was passed to the cell
leader.And then i got loads
of stuff that told me off saying i pay lip
service
to God only.And i
guessed its my indecisiveness that made my cell
leader say
such
shockingly rough words.Must have irritated him so i guess it
my fault. But
anyway humans talk in any manner when they are mad.So i
forgave both of
them
after i put down the phone.After all i irritated
them.And one cant
expect
everyone to be perfect.

Secondly i surveyed
most of my
members about
cell group relations.Most of them told me they
would
rather prefer to have
another cell member calling them up to just have
a
genuinely heart to heart chat
than to mention church and bible stuff.The
bible says let everything have
balance.Yes we have the mind of christ
but we
dont have to force the bible on
each other all the time.Unless
someone asks
for a revelation.If need be,cut ur
revelation short.Dont
preach a long
winded sermon that serves to confuse,and
occasionally
,irritate people.Come
straight to the main point.Further more a
simple
encouraging word or phrase
is strong enough to build someone up. U cant
recite word for word from a 300
page novel,let alone a 50 page nove can
you?In a
relationship,the most
impactable phrase is "i love you".Such a
simple phrase
causes guys to smile
day in day out..girls to be smiling
dreamily ..hahah.So its
like feeding on
a bite sized nuggte that grow in
u like a seed being sown.U dont
have to sow
so many seeds in a person's
soul and then have weeds growing all
over.Talk
about overcrowding
conditions.AHhaa science project in primary school.

I
dont mean to
to offend anyone but please act in love.coming to church
and
stuff is a
willing act,not something that people have to push u or to be
monitored.That
can make u feel controlled and "cultish",like how cults use
militaristic and
nasty means to make sure u dont stray away.So please.If a
member doesnt
come..he or she loses out for that day..but it doesnt mean he
or
she is
straying away!!people want to be treated nicely.pressuring
them,even if
they are a believer or not..is obviously not acting in love.And
most of
my
fellow members agree to this!!.
In a GENERAL perspective,WE all dislike irritating salespeople we meet on the streets or telemarketers who call us up with the intention of pulling us to buy their product and services.And there is absolutely no sincerity or frienship involved.I get calls from my cell members for one thing only."hey we got (event) service this week.Would you like to come?" or "you coming for cell group?" Such statements contian absolutely no friendship.Just an ensuring statement that serves to maintain your prescence at church.Between friends we call one another up to talk about everything under the sun.And between colleagues they do spend 80% of their time talking about non work-related topics.That can help decrease work stress and promote harmony. Try talking to a devout christian.They cant help but spend 80% of their time talking about church matters and GOD and all that stuff.When u try to talk 20% of non church matters,they inevitably center back onto church matters.And getting you to convert and belief.Its a one sided thing. No offense to any followers of any religion,but the main thing is clear :DONT BE A NUISANCE TO OTHER PEOPLE.DONT CALL UR FRENS JSUT FOR THE INTENTION OF ASKING THEM TO GO TO CHURCH.USE THE 80/20 RULE.USE 80% OF YOUR TIME TO TALK ABOUT MUNDANE MATTERS.
personally as a churched person the last time,i spend 80% of my time talking about non church matters to almost about anyone,including cell members.That way they wont feel the pressure or stress all the time,unless they like talking about church matters. (like talking about work on relaxing weekends from work can still bring about that same amount of "nerve wrecking" feeling.it will make no difference from being at the work place.All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.NO LIFE!!!)
Secondly i would like to talk about persecution of christians.I used to think i was being persecuted by my parents for their objection to me going to church.Most new converts would hav gone throug this,something they call "trials and tribulations" OR simply "God given teststo strengthen one's faith". MAny new converts who are teens have tried to ignore parental objections successfully and later apllauded by the cell group for being able to withstand such a harsh trial.In fact,genuine persecution is when your faith is being mugged at for no apparent reason.Like if u are a jew,and hitler has to kill you just for that reason alone,and u cant betray your own race just to keep your own life.
In a general perspective,parental objection is simply the fact that your parents are worried about you going to church and receiving the wrong teachings. Or you go to church all the time but you never change much.so its pointless.Finally its due to your parents feeling that you spent too much time at church and is too obsessed with church stuff that it is unhealthy.Juts explain it to them and clear all misunderstandings.Instead of ignoring it.If they still do not listen,it may be due to the fact that you have been raised a member of another religion and all of a sudden your conversion to a new God ,that seems to betray your current faith.Like a raised buddhist but turned christian later on .And your family memebers ,being advent believers in buddhsim strongly object you to switch to another God.
Lasty,your thoughts can be strong in the bible,but you can still speak in laymen terms to those who do not believe.But your thoughts cannot be to christian.Its very one sided and you will see things in a limited way.Do adopt a wider range of thinking.For example,christians are likely to get more paranoid and start to hold "prayer meetings" to counter a potential faith wrecking cult message being delivered new age speakers who comes to our local ground and holds conventions to promote their ideology.
IF they are so confident that christianity will not be asundered,why the sudden nervousness? Say u built a strong building like the raffles hotel.U wont send the construction workers to keep putting cement and stronger foundations to the walls of the building whenever the wind blows or the rain stops.It will not collapse! you already have put a strong foundation inside.Just believe and trust that it is strong!!You do not have to contact secret spy agents to spy on your spouse or lover 24/7 for fear that day hang out with members of the opposite sex.Because you believe that your spouse or lover is commited to you!!!And u are confident of the fact.
enough ramblings.Enjoy the edited vid of joe satriani's 'always with you,never with me' guitar ballad.It sounds way off! haha..its done on purpose.

psychological power ups

2007-04-02T00:52:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered how to transform yourself into a person of ur dreams? Someone who have got all dreams and goals realised. I recently borrowed a very good book entitled "brain power" it deals with 6 intelligence we posess and how to deliver them to its fool potential.Its not the gardner's 8 multiple intelligence here.not about the inter/intrapersonal , musical ,kinaesthetic or watsover intelligence. I shall summarise some here:

Verbal IQ: a person's iq is actually judged by his or her command of words and language. I didnt know that,and it sounds real fresh to me! Since language of any culture is the only medium of communication,having a high command of any language relevant = high IQ. AS in the more knowledge you acquire,how do express it other than actions?by words.and terms of that particular knowledge.

IF ur vocabulary is not strong enough,you probably cant get ur views and ideas across to others clearly. Succesful Sales people have this form of intelligence.They have a high command of vocabulary to do sales effectively.Give them any piece of crap and they can make it sound like a valuable product.

Visual IQ: The primary force of motivation in men.What do you SEE yourself as? visual imagery in the mind aids u to find your purpose,whatever u imagined urself to be. Plus it has been said ur eyes are like cameras.always taking a snapshot of the things around you,and your mind filters out a particular context.For example if u were to be in a park,and afterwards someone is talking to you about how beautiful the plants are,ur mind automatically searches for the recent impression of the colours pertaining to flowers and leaves.The mind sees things as a whole before categorising and filtering out information by type.

When u pick up a book to read,if u go word by word ,you probably cannot remember what u read after closing the book.Solution?? Just skimp through the WHOLE page and later u can remember at leat some relevant information u are looking for. And it helps u in understanding whatever articles better,be it revising for exams or reading test papers beforehand.

yup there u are.Some tips for effectivness.more to come!!

enjoy this vid.the artist is chihiro onitsuka. Song title "waltz with me" or "watashi to waritsu wo"
in japanese. is the theme song for the japanese tv series show "trick" played on our local tv around 2 years back.

stone sour-through glass (live)

2007-03-21T23:11:00.000-07:00

This is stone sour's "through glass" live.The original mtv has been wiped out of youtube due to copyright laws of roadrunner records. So here it is!!!

soothing variation

2007-03-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

here is a soothing variatin of steve vai's for the love of god melody.enjoy!

memory

2007-03-18T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hey as u know guys know..i have a poor memory.Just kidding. Ok its just i can be quite forgetful at times. So how?whats the cause ? and where does confidence come from?? I think it just comes from the way we remember things. For those who have taken psycho before...u know it.

Thinking negative thoughts can make u very forgetful. THis proven fact seems illogical to me at first.But to think of it..u are actually spending 80% of your time thinking painful,confidence crushing things that u are not focusing on what you succeeded at before. If u put the 80% of time on what you have achieved before,not only will you fire up your memory cells about all the good things in ur achievemetns,you will also reinforce these facts and they will add up to your confidence level.

When u think depresseing thoughtsmyour brain goes into stress mode,releaseing alot of neuropeptides that can cause your heart to beat fast when u enter exams or other mentally demanding activities.That feeling is what most people call "nervousness".U cant concentrate like that.

Did you know...that being able to forget is also a gift? though we hate it when it happens when we are going to go for exams.Think about the prospect of everyone haveing a super pro memory.U and I will be killing each other because we can remember the slightest detail of when,where and how we offended each other and owe each other's money.Thats what i read of in a book.SO to those who feel that studying is a waste of time...relax...i know ,most of the time after a test ,we'll just forget about what we've studied so hard for,just to pass the subject. Its not the end of the world!!!haha....

Forgetting can help reduce mental clutter.You wont have to sort your way through mentally like a maze when recalling certian details. Your brain auto-disposes of the info that is not used as often,or just store it permanently until future retrieval.

For example,now..dont think of anything...now think of the times when u were a kid ,following your parents out to visit relatives during chinese new year,hari raya..recall what u like most about that particular visit.did somehting pop up in your head? you havent even thought of anything like this until i told u to.

And now that you have recalled..it stays in your head like a fresh memory again .though all these days you never even though of this.Thats what i have learnt so far.On how to improve your memory...

And here is a beatiful guitar ballad for you all. Its by this instrumental guitarist called "steve vai". enjoy!!

soulfly-prophecy

2007-03-15T22:52:00.001-07:00

this band here is called soulfy. To get an idea of what my BOSS guitar sound processor can do..LISTEN TO THIS VID!! i figred out that funny sound for the intro.The effect is termed "pedal bend" .what exactly does it sound like? it sounds like a sudden tuning up of a note.By around 2 or 3 octaves.YEP!!!ok ignore that "new millenium tribal war" screaming...

another song...

2007-03-14T01:46:00.000-07:00

ok here is a progressive rock band called evergrey.Nice music there.very ambient. I shall take some time off from talking about handling failures and my personal take on it until further problems arises....till then..

By the way the lyrics are very positive.This is the type of hardcore metal music that i am planning to play with some of my musician friends and pals.Death/black metal with a touch of positivity.here are the lyrics:

A Touch Of Blessing

[Music: Englund, Lyrics: Englund]

Climbing walls of an endless circle
Walking paths you never heard of
Struggling in an endless battle
Searching for a higher purpose

Drowning in betrayals river
The freezing cold will make you shiver
Join the world of greater learning
Crown me king and be my servants

Mislead by beauty
One you rarely find
So loving and friendly
It's one of a kind

Their arms wide open
Willing to take me in
No doubts in choosing
A world free from sin

All the dreams I had
All my future wishes
Put aside for a greater journey
All the things I planned
Left my friends so coldly
Put aside for a
Higher...

Mislead by beauty
One you rarely find
So loving and friendly
It's one of a kind

One single army
Unite as one
A touch of blessing
Which cannot be undone

Drowning in betrayals river
The freezing cold will make you shiver
Join the world of greater learning
Crown me king and be my servants

All the dreams I had
All my failure wishes
Put aside for a greater journey
All the things I planned
Left my friends so coldly
Put aside for a higher purpose

[Solo]

[x2]
All the dreams I had
All my future wishes
Put aside for a greater journey
All the things I planned
Left my friends so coldly
Put aside for a
Higher

NO suicide!!

2007-02-24T22:05:00.000-08:00

OK to my frens who know me,yes,now some products of me and my frens are now on on a webiste he designed called www.shiokping.com .

Visit this website and take a look at some stuff we are selling. Have fun.

I generally recommend the rings.So look into it!!Have fun!!!

judged-success?!

2007-02-17T00:10:00.000-08:00

think about this for a moment.Your success is how people view you.Cant it be the other way round??

Most of us see Success as an achievement of a personal goal.That's number 1.Then the other is to gain fame and recognition.The second one serves the irony of it all.You want to work hard...to gain fame??Now isnt that something everybody is dreaming of..

Not to say that we are all inecure with ourselves that we need people to notice us.But its just this weird thing when you got your O level results,only then can you enter the institute of choice.And once again you hear your family and friends say :"you have to score well so people from that institute will take you in." So here is when the mentality of "working for others not for enjoyment" comes in.YOU want people to see you as who you are.YOU want to prove to them waht you really are.YOU wont be able to stand it if you are fired by them.and that's when YOU are obsessed woth your personal image,has anything gone wrong??I have been strong in my career/studies all this time.Why is it so unfair?Should i kill myself?Since no one is giving me a place in this world anymore.Now everyone sees ME as a FAILURE.

That's way too self conscious.And the least you could do is look for a job or an area of study that u are passionate in.Even in times of failure,you wont even mind doing the very thing you are doing.After all you have the passion,and confidence to pull through it.Cos you know you are good at it,just that something has gone wrong a little.

Put in in another perspective.Why is a company of any product so successful?when they are WORLD FAMOUS.And PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD buy their products.Hence they earn so much from PEOPLE's expenditure.When no one buys their product,the whole company has to shut down inevitably. And thats weird because whatever job u are in,u are serving people.Why dont see it as you are helping the community instead of working so hard like you are a slave for people?Just see it as u are helping them free of charge.

And having a sense of self satisfaction really does help

.because at the end of the day that's what keeps your morale high.

Remeber also,DONT work for the sake of proving yourself to others.DONT work for the sake of earning money.DONT work for the sake of earning a living itself.now..that's torturing life out there..

think about life again...

2007-01-09T22:53:00.000-08:00

i Sound philosophical huh?always talking about life..thats because in today's world society is becoming so fast-paced we hardly got time to "stop and smell the roses."Too much stress and pride builds up, accumulates till we keep everything to ourselves,and we end up carrying e mental burden of a whole tumult of negative emotions that gives us white hot searing pains to our life.OUR MENTAL life.Take care if that.

Check out www.lifebeforedeath.org.sg .muhammad abdooh is really an inspiration to the dying and the suicidal.COme on ,this guy is down with multiple cancer and he still smokes on one of his video blogs,confessing that he was a chain smoker.The doctors told him to stop,but he still does it.And he ven jokes about this on the video.But he knows he has to quit,but before that,he will "switch to another brand of cigarettes and cut down on the daily intakes".Rather humorous.
You may say he lives a life worse than death,painfully slow.But he still lives life like it was way before he contracted cancer!!!

YOu dun have cancer,or maybe you would like to term yourself having an emotional cancer,because at times you just cant control your wild and haunting emotions that serves to be the wreck of your life.But you just have to confess to your loved ones.HAving suicidal thoughts may be embarrasing..but once confessed,family members will understand.IF they dont,at least you said it out,and felt better.LIke i was talking to one of my old friends yesterday,its like after a heavy alcoholic intake,one will puke.If you kept your puke inside you,you will feel worse!!!So its like this :you puke in public due to over consumption of alcohol.seems embarrassing.but at least you puked.And it felt better afterwards.On the day i confessed to my parents that i was suicidal,i cried like a small kid who lost his parents in the middle of a gigantic shopping mall.

overcome!!

2007-01-09T19:50:00.000-08:00

Give myself a pat on my back. I was suicidal,yes,but i never thought of killing myself.Once
i had bizarre thoughts on planning my death.pain free. I was thinking of swallowing 20 over
sleeping pills and hopefully die peacefully the next day.
Guess what?this pain in me was relieved.I gathered up enough courage to tell my parents i
felt this way.And the only thing that stopped me was crying in front of them if i said
it.After all,parents nowadays dont even encourage their kids to cry.SICK!! if u dont express
ur emotions,it will come out sideways, as in showing up as easily agitated,or moody and
quite for the whole day.

On a heartier note,no matter how bad ur suicidal thoughts are,its
just the habit of you going through the same routine ,everyday, thinking this way.
Dont think in a way that u are lonely,or useless.this is like forcing yourself into one
corner of the wall,and not being able to walk out of the room when in the first place,THERE
IS SO MUCH SPACE FOR U TO MOVE ABOUT RIGHT INFRONT OF YOU!!!!!!
Most causes of suicide in an urban society is the pressure of facing difficulties,the lack
of self esteem,and most importantly,lack of family support.
lastly its FAILURE>that "f" word!!yes.

I love talking about overcoming failures.I had no confidence in myself too!! for some
reasons i could not know why.But if u dont give urself a chance to dicover ur potentials and
bring em up,u will never know when u can be successful.how do u define success?
According to my guitar teachermhe does not care if u completed ur academic journey.Its about
achieving ur goals and what u really want to be in life!!! He told be if he wanted to be an
engineer,he does not care if someone took 5 years to become one and him,8 years.as long as
he becomes one.that's it. final. Society wants everything to be fast,but u dont have t be
fast if u know u cant! everyones different.Dont even care what others think of you.I am good
at going in the reverse direction of most common mentalities.will tell u that in more detail
in future posts.that's the art of uniqueness.till then!!

DONT KILL YOURSELF OVER TRIVIAL CAUSES!!